May 30

Today, I feel like poop. My mornings always start out pretty good, except I went shopping to get supplies for our taco/cocktail night tomorrow night and got chocolate. But that was fine, I wanted it. Even lunch was okay, and then I did arms afterwards, but my afternoon starts and I just start to feel bad.  It's not even like I feel like I'm eating that much, I guess it just adds up. A bite here and there, or a little snack, and Sigrid made Rhubarb cake which was actually pretty good and I only had a tiny sliver. We cut up veggies again for dinner and made dip from quark and yogurt because Sigrid always brings the extras that are about to expire, even though they get donated and we can't eat them fast enough. So we try. I only had 2 tiny pieces of bread too, but somehow I just end up with a major stomach ache every night and feel super bloated. I hate it. I know I don't need all this food, and I generally don't get very hungry at night, but for me it's really hard when the food's just there. I started a food journal for today but I lost track after lunch and now I don't even know or really want to. I'm trying to take pictures of everything I eat so at least I'm more aware, and plan more ahead of time. I also decided that instead of no sweets except 1 day a week, I'm a kind of person who needs a treat a day, whatever that may me. So anyways. But tomorrow's Friday, and I have to work all night but Rachel and I planned a fun night. I felt so good after last weekend, when I didn't spend all day with the kids and in and out of the kitchen surrounded by food! 

May 28

I did not keep track of what I ate today. It was all over the place. But I did get my fruits and veggies and workouts in, so that counts for something! For once it wasn't raining and we could send the kids outside. I also proved I can still do a backhandspring.

May 27

11 posts, 111 views. That's pretty lucky I guess.

I felt great this morning and did arms, and upped my reps. And since I didn't run yesterday, I went today. I only did a little over 5 miles, but it was raining and muddy and I even fell down once. Good thing I was in the woods. Luckily Sigrid wasn't there till later, so Gritta was in charge of lunch. She roasted a bunch of veggies, and I made rice and reheated the noodle and made a new sauce out of Saturday's leftovers. I added carrots and half a pepper, plus some sour cream and yogurt. It was good, but I ended up eating a lot in the evening. It's easy to do since I don't really need much at night. Plus I ate chocolate and a little cake, so that's my one dessert day for the week. Okay I'm tired.

May 26

Today was about as Sunday as you can get. I had a long run planned, but it poured literally all day so I ended up not going outside. I ate a lot of food for breakfast, which wasn't surprising sing I hadn't eaten anything the night before. Plus Gritta finally went shopping, and I happened to be down there when the kids were having their morning snack of chocolate cereal. mixed in with oats and yogurt and stuff. So of course I ate some plain. But then I found the fruit that she had hidden since there's now an ant invasion and took as apple, banana, and the leftover salad to my room so I would make sure to get my fruit and veggie servings. I cleaned a lot of my room, distracted myself a lot, watched a couple movies, and went to bed really early. I just woke up and it's midnight, so maybe too early. Week 1 is done! Not as successful as I would have hoped, but not a complete failure either. Here's to Week 2!

May 24 and 35

Friday I finally got to skype with Hannah for the first time after we graduated, and then I did a hill workout. I ate a huge breakfast for some reason, and Sigrid had make this gross looking soup for lunch with chunks of meat clearly floating around, that I had seen cooking the day before with basically an animal carcass in it. So Rachel and I decided to make a salad. I did blend some of the soup for the kids though, because otherwise they wouldn't have eaten it. And I made zucchini bread because I've been craving it. Even Sigrid tried it and didn't have anything bad to say. But when she saw it on the counter, she decided she had to make cake with Magnus. And then I was in the kitchen, and she asked me if I had eaten the soup. I said no, because there was meat in it. She replied that it was just what had fallen off while cooking, and that she hadn't put any in on purpose. And then I tried to explain for the 500th time that just because the meat gets in there accidentally, it's not vegetarian. And even if you can't see meat, if it's made with it, it's not vegetarian. And she just interrupted me and said "it's fine! it's fine! it's fine!". So I just left the room. Her cooking's gross anyways.

In the evening we went out with out tough mudder team for the first time, and Rachel and I had 2 mojitos that were basically rum. Then we ended up at Dublin Inn where karaoke is, and decided we could have a cider and then be done. But our friend was working and brought us 2 for 1. And then I sang, and this guy was trying to hit on me for a friend, but I let him buy me a drink and then I just ended up ignoring them. But I really did not need that beer. Finally we could go home.

Saturday waking up was a little rough. We got to breakfast and Sigrid was there...ugh. She wanted to make lunch but luckily we were planning on going to a nearby city for a big flea market Gritta's mom was helping with. I went upstairs with the twins to get them dressed, and they were right with me. Then, all of a sudden, Magnus comes running in like he does when he wants to annoy me and the twins. Unfortunately, the twins love to slam doors. We get upset with them and are trying to get them to stop, especially after Philippa's finger. But Greta slammed the door in Magnus' face, and the handle hit his eye. He was screaming like it was the end of the world, but he's often extremely dramatic and I was thinking he would just need an ice pack or something. And then I saw blood. Luckily the parents had come running upstairs and called an ambulance. He was lucky, and everything will be fine, but it was really scary. Philippa knew exactly what was going on and even recognized the doctor that came, and Greta was upset all day because she knew it was somehow her fault. So we stayed home with the girls all morning, and decided to make ourselves lunch before Sigrid could. We made another salad with a yummy mint basil yogurt dressing, and then pasta with sauce. I cooked onions, bell pepper, zucchini and tomatoes, then added spices, herbs, tomato past and a little water and blended it up. I'm trying to get more veggies in those kids, because lately all we've been eating is meat, potatoes, oil and lots and lots of salt. I barely added any salt. Henny had told us she likes pasta with zucchini so we added a little grated zucchini and some corn at the end just so they at least knew they were eating veggies and it still tasted good. And I have to say, I ate a lot of food, but I felt so much better than I usually do after lunch. Usually I'm sluggish and heavy and tired, and really thirsty. But after eating this, even though I was exhausted, it wasn't from the food at all. I was full, but it was a good full and I didn't feel super weighed down. It makes me wonder what Sigrid puts in the food. Obviously oil and salt. And she sneaks meat and broth into my food, I know it.

I stayed in my bed all afternoon and kind of took a nap, and then I finally made myself get up and do yoga. I did one of the advanced classes, and it was certainly more than a little stretching! I never really got hungry and didn't want to have to get dressed to go downstairs, so I didn't eat after that.But I kind of ate all morning, so I just basically ate all my meals early.

May 22

Whelp, I've been slacking. I would say it's because I'm busy with working all day every day and interviews and such, but I've been slacking on eating well too. I felt so good after I got back from Portugal, but now I'm back to blah. I have been pretty good about working out, but eating is a disaster.

Rachel and I decided to do this 8 week challenge. You basically get points for eating healthy, working out, avoiding unhealthy things, and weight loss. The first 2 days I didn't do so great, but today I got all the points! I've substituted drinking water for not eating off the twins' plates though, because I hate throwing food away and it's so easy to do. But it just all adds up, I don't need it, and it's kinda gross. I'm sure they've slobbered on everything they've ever touched.

Today, I woke up early and did a sprint workout in the freezing windy rain. I came back, did an arms circuit, and then went down to breakfast. The girls are all home, so only Magnus had to be up early and I could get up a little later. It was pretty nasty weather, and the kids were terrible today. We painted, bathed them, made a salad to go with the pancakes at lunch, and then it had finally stopped raining. I took the twins for a walk while Rachel picked up Magnus. Sigrid, who's been here forever and used to be the housekeeper, is filling in until the new girl starts working. She's old and loads the kids up on sweets and goes behind our backs and makes super salty and oily foods. We made sure to make the dressing before she got there because even her salad dressings are salty! Pancakes are yummy though, with homemade applesauce and cooked blueberries.

We tried to make all the kids nap, but it was kind of a fail. They all cried and complained but finally some of them slept. In the afternoon we just chased after them and told them to stop being horrible, and were able to go outside for a while. I cut up veggies and Rachel and I ended eating a lot of them. Then we came inside and fed the kids and tried to get them to bed early. I just had the veggies and some apple slices with a couple wedges of camembert, along with (fake vegetarian alert) some wurst from the hofladen. I don't even like it that much I just can't stop. Then after we put them to bed I had a little piece of the giant wasa knäckerbrots with peanut butter and honey.

Back on Track

I was really bad about eating the few days before the half marathon, but luckily I felt ok the day of. Anyways, I did it! And I was happy with my time.
The next day I flew to Portugal and had the time of my life! I met awesome people, saw awesome things, and ate like a normal person. I didn't lose that much weight, well maybe from a week ago but not 2, but I felt really good the whole time. It was a completely stress free week. Just what I needed. If I had had more than 5€ the day I left I might just have stayed...

Anyways, I feel great feeling great and I want to keep it that way! I think the main thing I need to watch out for is afternoon snacking. And desserts. It's easy to get carried away! It's finally turning from sprig to summer here and I'm so excited. Never have I wanted summer more. The sun in Portugal did me good and I felt like myself again! Let's hope the next 2 1/2 months are fantastic!

Um

The last couple of days have not been the greatest, foodwise. I've been feeling not really like myself and had the kind of stomach ache where you think eating a lot might help, but really it just makes you feel bloated. But anyways, I didn't record what I ate. I guess I'll just put it down to carbo-loading? I really need to make sure to eat healthy in the next 48 hours though so I have good energy going through my body for the race. I decided not to drink coffee today or tomorrow, so I can get the caffeine out of my system and then maybe hopefully it'll be more effective before the race. I need to plan more of my trip to portugal, write a packing list and start packing, and finish cleaning my room. I feel like I have so much free time now that I'm tapering! (not really though...)

April 30

I did conditioning in the morning again, because I don't want to do anything that will make me sore after, like, today. I had a piece of bread with nutella on half with banana, and honey and banana on the other half. I also went on a slow 6 mile run that felt hard. It was the last real run before Sunday! Sigrid, an old woman who's been around forever and used to be the housekeeper, is apparently coming back sometimes. She's... interesting. She smokes all the time and spoils the kids except Henny. And generally just makes things more difficult. But I guess that means I have to clean up the kitchen slightly less often. She cooked rice and chicken in curry sauce, and was nice enough to make separate sauce for me. With cream and butter, of course. Plus a salad with grilled asparagus. That was salty. Rachel had warned me about that - she said it took a while to get used to it. I'm just glad there was salad! Every other time she's cooked it's been some form of salty greasy potatoes and meat.

I had a couple milk coffees in the afternoon, plus a tea. And Johanna wanted to make banana bread, so I made some with 1/2 whole grain spelt flour and 1/2 normal. Plus apple sauce since I only had 2 instead of 4 bananas. I think if I make it again though I'll putt in less butter - especially with the apple sauce. But is was still good. I like whole grain banana bread! It was definitely different than last time, but hot out of the oven it was delicious. I was only a little hungry for dinner, and had a small piece of seedy bread with quark and a leftover hard boiled egg, plus an apple I shared with Greta and some veggies Rachel cut up. We had lots of coffee because we were going to Tanz in den Mai! I'll write about that on my other blog, but I drank a couple beers and a fanta there, and we got back pretty late.